Once again I am overwhelmed by peoples kindness. Several times since opening this blog I have had this same theme. I can’t help it. It’s the truth. It’s completely how I feel. A dear friend (and a committee of her friends) are putting together another benefit for us. The generosity and willingness to help from strangers is so overwhelming when you are in this situation. I know that Vi’s needs are present, I live this life every day, but to have strangers so willing to do what they can to help just melts me. I appreciate that there are so many people willing to help my sweet angel have the best possible life. I know that is certainly what we desire for her. We have been on this journey of the unknowns for 16 months and life has been exhausting to say the least. I can’t think of a night since prior to her birth (you know NO pregnant lady sleeps through the night) but usually by 16 months of age you are starting to have been sleeping through the night again. Vi still routinely wakes up. She wakes up to play, eat, play some more. On a good night Jake will feed her and then I will rock her back to sleep right away and we will not have to spend a great amount of time away with her, but on an average night…one if not both of us are up with her for several hours. Some nights she just fusses…fusses until whoever is out with her can’t take it anymore and goes into get the opposite. Sometimes we just leave her to fuss, but some nights she is SO upset you can’t leave her.
So although no one really knows what it’s like to be us…on this journey of unknowns…the open & willingness to help to whatever is possible to help. Two of our dear friends have offered to watch the girls so Jake & I could take an overnight get away. I trust these 2 ladies so much I will certainly take them up on it, but we have to come up with something to do…I don’t want to just “get away” and not have something fun. Sitting in a hotel just to get away doesn’t sound like much fun.
How could we not be so grateful for the wonderful people that God has put into our lives. He gave us this beautiful daughter for a reason…He knows WE are the best parents for her. I have to be thankful that we have been given this opportunity to express our faith & our love.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 states, 16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
Have I always been super excited about this journey…excited in the middle of the night when all Violet is doing is screaming…NO….if I said that those moments were great ones…man…my nose would be longer than Pinocchio!!! But in the morning, when I wake up after getting a few more hours of sleep and I am holding this beautiful little doll and she is looking back up at me & jabbering (and in my interpretation saying, “I am sorry mama, I can’t help it, but thank you for loving me so much”) my heart melts again and I am reminded that everything is the way it is supposed to be.
I am sure that this will be another entry later, but honestly, all Jake & I can say is thank you– I often feel that isn’t enough….I know if a friend of mine was in our situation I would certainly want to do whatever I could to help and who knows maybe years from now when life seems…normal…ha! Will that every happen? I will be able to do the same for someone else.
So thank you….thank you for all your thoughts, prayers, support & encouragement. Whether you are putting together a benefit for us or just see us & encourage or pray for us…know that we are thankful!